GEMSTONE

My heart was so warm it felt like summer. Now, it's winter and my body feels like a lapis lazuli.

My feet are at the ground but my head is floating with the stars. 

I dream so much, at night and when people are talking to me and I get lost at their conversations. Lost on their words, lost in my imagination.

Somedays I'm sedentary. Somedays I'm so active that I want to eat the world in just a bite.

When I'm anxious, I crave. When I'm depress, I don't eat.

Food could be my best friend or my enemy. It like sweets but my love life is so sour.

When I look at the mirror I see sometimes a beautiful woman or a kid that thinks she an adult with a shitty face. Depends.

Depends on my period calendar. That's the key of how my humor is going to be. 

2020 and I still depend at my parents.

Parents...the best roomies I've ever had. On their 50's with so much experience. Two persons that are so caring and kind. They ask where I'm heading, they even give me money. Quite funny. I'm so in love with them, but I know I'm moving out in a few more years. It's scary but exciting at the same time.

I could fail or I could succeed, whatever happens will mark my path. I will grow not only physical but also mentally. 

Life isn't easy. I've been through a lot. Everybody has. I'm not the only one. As far as I know, I'm unique. 

I had to learn to love myself first to begin loving someone else. I had low self-esteem, things changed. I surely did. 

I feel worth a thousand smiles. My hair is way too long, like the list of qualities I have. It's shinny just like when I walk into a room. I possess big black eyes such as my future goals. My lips tempting as I pronounce your name, if you dare kiss them I assure you two things: you'll want more than one and you'll never forget the taste of cruel, delighting and seducing passion. My body has big and striking mountains behind me as wells as plain and tasteless hills near my neck. I could continue describing myself sentence by sentence but you may fall in love with me, or if you already did. I don't blame you.

You see, that's the point. We should start overvaluing ourselves. First, we exist for a reason. I don't completely know my exact roll in life but I'm figuring it out. Second, I breathe, even though it's air full of pollution, I'm filling my lunges with oxygen. Third, I handle the worst and awful fears and obstacles every human being could pass through. In fact, I also enjoy the most valuable treasure that is living. I get to see the world, I'm in it. And at last but not least, my emotions. There are unknown. Not on expert but I know when I'm happy, sad, mad, angry, surprised, loving, focused, determined, shy, critical, etc. That's the pleasure, you get to learn of yourself every day, something new, each time different but it's always you.